Friday, November 26, 2021

The Universe - or is it Fate - is fickle.

If someone had told me yesterday that an asteroid would collide with Earth, that we'd have a flood of Biblical proportions, or that a solar storm would wipe out all our electronics, I would probably have said "I guess that could happen." 

If someone had told me my dog Ellie would fall dead down, I would have said, "Ellie? That doesn't seem likely." And it's exactly what happened.

She seemed her normal self yesterday. We were out in the woods walking and she was just like normal. She bounced by the door for evening walkies, just like normal. Had dinner and asked for treats, just like normal. And fell asleep in the sofa, sleep barking a little, just like normal.

This morning, I heard her come up the stairs, it sounded like she was walking in a circle to lie down, like dogs do, and then there was a thump and a whimper. I hurried out of bed and out into the hall and I was there in seconds, but she was already dead. 

I've been worried about losing my other dog, Topper, because he's starting to look old. His eyes look old and his fur is sprinkled with white where it didn't use to be. I've looked at Ellie and thought, "Soon it will just be you and me. That will be weird, I wonder how we will cope." And now she's gone. 

Yesterday, I told her, "We'll do that tomorrow" and had no idea there wouldn't be a tomorrow. 

There's a hole in my heart and the house is empty. 

We biological creatures age and die. It's a fact of life, I know that, but every New Year I wish this will be the year when no one I love dies. I think the Universe looks at me and mumbles, "Oh, that's just adorable. You still have a lot to learn about this. Let me see what I can cook up."

The current streak started in 2016. That year, my husband, my dog Bonnie, and two good friends died. After that it just kept going. My cat Samson and my dog Boo, within months of each other. Since April last year my mom, three good friends, Mike's dad, Mike's granny, my cat Adam, my neighbor, and now Ellie. Another good friend got early Alzheimer's. She's still alive, but it's moot. She has no idea who I am. 

The list is too long for such a short period of time. I wish I had something profound to say about it, but I don't. 

Thursday, November 18, 2021

Exactly what I would have done too.

The dogs and I went on a stroll through the woods today and stumbled over a large red building. The freshly painted door made me smile - it's exactly what I would have done.

In my case, the line of reasoning would have been, "This project is much too big for me, I don't even know where to begin. I'm going to paint this door. It's something I can manage and it makes a statement. Shows that someone's working on it."

I hope whomever started with the door keeps going. :-) 

Wednesday, November 17, 2021

Whose car is that?

I consider myself at least normally intelligent; I even like to believe I'm smart. However, some instincts run so deep they're near impossible to get rid of. 

For instance, I have a black SUV. The car before this one was also a black SUV. Thus my brain accepts that there is and should be a black SUV in my yard. The current one is a Chevy and the old was a Peugeot, but they look the same.

About a week and a half ago, said black SUV had a flat tire. On a Sunday, so everything was closed. I don't have a spare and even if I did, it wouldn't do me any good - I have a bum hand and I can't fix things like this.

This was just one in a long row of automotive mishaps, and where I live, there aren't many options besides "use the car." I can walk, but everything's too far away - it would take me at least eight hours to walk to the city. I don't have the stamina, will power, or time to attempt a thing like that. There are buses, but not in abundance - maybe four a day. We don't have a taxi service and there is no Uber. And, asking neighbors for help gets old quickly. 

To make matters worse, I had an important appointment that I needed to keep Monday morning: a land survey at my cottage. 60 kilometers (37 miles) away - definitely not walking distance. 

I was looking online to see if I could rent a vehicle - I knew there's no one close by, but thought maybe someone would deliver a rental, but this too was a bust. 

I've had a lot of car problems lately and I've thought of getting a back-up vehicle. I went to "Blocket" - it's kind of like Craigslist - and the first thing that came up was a pretty, blue, tiny Kia. At a dealership and in my price range - and the ad said "may show on Sundays with appointment." 

Though, it was 30 kilometers (19 miles) away. The bus schedule rolled on the floor laughing when I looked for public transportation, and the neighboring houses were dark. No rides. The Kia could just as well have been on the moon.

And just like that, everything worked out. 

The very nice owner brought the car to me, even though it was Sunday. I got to my appointment on Monday morning. Almost didn't make it back - the wheels got stuck in the mud - but the tiny but mighty South Korean vehicle was able to free itself.

Tuesday morning, the Chevy had to go to the tire shop - on a wrecker! It was kind of cool to ride in the gigantic vehicle, but don't tell my car. This will not become a habit.

With the regular car back in business, I looked at the Kia and thought, "This car is so small, it will fit in the garage if I clean it out. Until next time I need it."

It didn't get that far. It only took a couple of days until a brake was stuck on the Chevy and I was back in the Kia. 

And now gas prices have risen to a ridiculous level. 18.44 Kr/liter - that's very close to $8 per gallon. The Kia only needs like half a liter per ten kilometers (approximately 47 miles per gallon) so I won't have to drive it for long to make up for the purchase price.

The funny thing is, every time I come home now and see a tiny blue car in the yard, I think, "Who's here? Why is there a car in my yard? I don't even know anyone with a car looking like that." And then I remember, "It's my car. DUH!"

I wonder how long it will take for me to learn. Haha!

The Universe - or is it Fate - is fickle.

If someone had told me yesterday that an asteroid would collide with Earth, that we'd have a flood of Biblical proportions, or that a so...